Hello!

That was a good long hiatus. Well, from the cyber world, unfortunately. The reality is, i just finished another phase of my student life, an industrial training. So, i was quite...busy? with that thing for a while. The truth is, i just lazy.

So, was it fun? I would wholeheartedly says no. But its not fair as it showed me a few perspectives of my next stage of life. So... is it fun? No, it sucks tbh. Let me tell you a story.

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You just stepped on another level of a game. It is called A Race of Life. The one that have the longest alley and you just cant seems to reach the end of it. No matter how many motivational songs did you heard. You kept on stumbling on the same barrier. When everyone seems to moving onto the next stage, and you just... there. Thinking why it was easier for everyone but me? Was i not good enough? Was i born to fail at everything? You cried you heart out, but they cant reach you. They dont. They have their own battle ahead. Its a shame to drop everything and go down to your level and start all over again.

And after much more healed bruises on top of each other, you started to get a grip of everything. You played the same game with everyone else, but you forgot each of you started at different level, with different weapon. You just happened to found each other at the same level, somehow. So.. is it a fun game after all? Did you enjoyed the view, or did you... already forgot the original mission of the the game? Was it to save the princess..or was it to save, YOU? And you keep on pondering whether everyone else have the same mission as yours? If so, why were everyone holding a different kind of weapon? One of them looked a little to heavy as being compared with the owner's body, and the other seems to carry an inappropriate kitchen knife? The only thing that stays the same is, they keep on moving forward.

Then, it hits you. This game was set as a race. Not among other player, but its a race with your own goals and satisfaction. Are you going in fast pace, or rather enjoys the stream.  You are fully aware now that everyone is on their own.

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I wasnt quite satisfied with my industrial training tbh. Its not what i think im doing for the next 5 years of my life. And im anxious. Anxious that my classmates seems to living on their dream. While, i dont have the chance. or did i missed it? But for now, i will be holding on to this story. Lets play pretend it was an okay life after all. Till then, thank you for reading.